Lockdown learning: how the pandemic heightened my self-awareness

The main thing I will take away from this period is a sense of self-awareness. The ability to look at myself without filters – whether external or internal – and acknowledge what is truly happening in the world, and in my own life. At a surface level, this can be attributed to the universality of the times we live in. The Coronavirus pandemic is a phenomenon that has changed the way we live across the world, and has reminded us of our ability to pull together in times of crisis.

‘There is so much more I want to learn beyond the bounds of academia.’

In truth, I had an underlying sense of unfulfillment with my life. I didn’t know where I wanted to be in a few years’ time. Shortly before the lockdown, I was sitting on a bus into my university town when I got to thinking that what I really wanted to be was useful to the world; I wanted to contribute to positive change by getting involved with the issues that I cared about, but had never seemed to have the time to get fully involved with during my degree. For whilst as a student I loved – and still love – my university course, the past five months have proved to me that there is so much more I want to learn beyond the bounds of academia.

‘The pandemic has proved that even in adverse times it is possible to learn, improve skills and grow as a human being.’

I was so busy as a student that I didn’t realise what was making me happy and what was leaving me unfulfilled. For instance, I never thought to contribute to publications seriously before, as I always believed the world of journalism was something that was beyond me, something I couldn’t be a part of. The pandemic has proved that even in adverse times it is possible to learn, improve skills and grow as a human being.

Part of my self-growth has come through being much more active on Instagram. While the social media platform has notable downsides, I am grateful to have found accounts such as @florencegiven, @ssustainably_, and @africabrooke, as their content has helped me to widen my perspectives about important issues. I would recommend everyone follow these activists and artists to learn something new, to challenge yourself, and to diversify your feed.

“I can be the version of myself I thought I couldn’t make progress on.”

Given’s book in particular, Women Don’t Owe You Pretty, has been a source of inspiration to me as the balmy summer months come to an end. She gives so many invaluable lessons to the reader that the title itself is almost a simplification. WDOYP taught me that I don’t have to settle – in relationships, friendships and even in my unhealthier habits. In short, I can be the version of myself I thought I couldn’t make progress on. Given’s illustrations and self-presentation reflect the values I hope to cultivate in myself: self-confidence, awareness and commitment to my boundaries, and fearlessness, from speaking out on the issues I care about to my fashion choices.

Overall, I’ve come away with a stronger sense of self since the pandemic began, and I’m incredibly grateful for it.

 

Alice Manning

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